I miss her...

For the first time today, in days, in months, I felt lonely. Strange, isn't it? I am a loner, by nature and by choice. Don't really know which one came first. Did my choice make that my nature or it was by nature already... I don't know.
Though, as a kid, my dad tells me, I used to be very extrovert, would make people around me laugh all the time.
But anyway, that's besides the point.
I was ok through out the day. But suddenly, sitting absolutely peacefully, something got to my head. I don't really know what it was. I don't know anything.
The only thing I know that when I walked out from that house, and strolled on the road in the darkness, I was crying. Not a drop of tear came out. I wouldn't let it.
I was missing something. Terribly.
What was it?
I wish I knew.
I wish I knew.
I feel lonely.
I miss her, terribly.
What would she be doing at this hour? Would she be smiling?
I feel like crying, like a baby.
I will.
Today I shall cry.
I miss you... a lot.
I wish...
But tomorrow will be a new day. I'll wake up with a smile.
I'll do what I do best - Sit back and enjoy the ride.
Whatever...
I hate myself like this. I hate me right now.