Writer's block

Today, this morning I broke my writer's block. It was there, I just didn't want to acknowledge. I also knew I could break it whenever I wanted to. All I needed to do was sit and write something publishable.

I'm half way down that story.

I've never blogged in between a story. This is a clear cut sign that I am not enjoying what I am writing. But in this profession, sometimes you gotta write even though you might not really feel for the issue you're writing about.

It's one reason I could never write business stories, or financial analysis, or politics for that matter. At least the techincalities and the who said what at what event.

I love writing. I just absolutely love it. And I love the way I write, when I write with my heart, when I don't need to check the notes I took while the person I was interviewing was talking.

I like writing about people, their feelings, their emotions. And my boss tells me I need to stop feeling. She's right. That's the way journalism works.

Your job is to present the facts. Not take stands.

But like I said, I write with my heart, not my mind. I write the way I think I'd say it out. I don't write, "not only did he do that, but he also did this," I don't like using, "however" in a sentence, I don't like ending my stories with a quote.

But sometimes, you can't avoid it. Yes, great stories are there, which you write your way if you can pull it off, but with those great stories also come your way some lousy stories, which even though are good bloody stories, like the one I am doing right now, but you don't feel for them.

It's not what you do. But you gotta do it. It's part of your job.

This morning I was talking to my newly found co-writer (screenplay and script) back home in Delhi. Yes, I'm gonna be doing that whenever I come back.

Several people had read my first book and said I had written it like a screenplay. The second book - Again - attracted the same sorta comments. That I am good at forming word pictures, that it would make an excellent screenplay, and that it lacks something for a book.

And then this girl came around out of nowhere. That was it. We're different people. Maybe our dreams are different too. Even our destinations. But as of now, our path is one.

Creating something of your own always is a great high. It can never match down to assignments and restricted newspaper writing.

I don't know. I always wanted to be in bollywood. Always. And I always believed I'll never have to go out searching for it. It'll come to me. And trust me, I have acknowledged this out aloud. And somehow, people didn't laugh when I said this. They actually believed it.

It's strange how your destiny finds you. And suddenly it all seems possible. Paths open up. What did you do? Nothing. Just sat back.

It's my gut belief, every person comes into your life for a reason, to tell you something, to give you something, to take you somewhere. They come and then they go.

Everything is planned. There are no coincidences.

I don't know what's planned for me. But I think, it's time to rise.