Alone and sick = Life sucks

I hate being sick - yeah I know most of you would wanna believe I missed the word 'mentally' before 'sick', but go take a walk, play ludo or somein... whatever.

I hate being physically unwell. It's just so sad. You feel weak, you're entire body hurts, you look like shit, your mouth tastes as if someone stuffed cotton into it for ten long years and then took all of it out. Your best dish tastes like... well... its almost tasteless.

Everything sucks.

I never liked being sick... never ever. Even when I got a chance to miss school. Coz if you miss school you gotta miss playing in the evening too - I never wanted to miss that no matter how sick I got. You can blame the energy levels for it.

Even now, when I get sick, I never rest. I feel sickness is psychological, well, pretty much. It's a belief. So I feel if when I am sick I go out partying, I'd feel fine. I do feel fine while I am partying. Your mind's not focussing on the fact that you're sick. The sad part begins when you get back home after partying sick.

God you feel so sick, it's not even funny. But does that stop me? Ha! No. I'm pretty staunch on my beliefs.

I don't like medicine. Taking medicine means acknowledging that you're sick. And acknowledging that you're sick means knowing that you're sick and hence feeling sick. So what do you do? Forget that you're sick and just carry on with your lives. You might say that's unhealthy, but hey, you ain't my girlfriend who I love very very much. You ain't gonna pamper me when I am lying in bed and whining with painful noises. Which means I won't give two testicles to what you think and what you have to say.

I miss my girlfriend. I want to put my head on her boobs and just sleep while she hugs me tight, kisses my forehead and my cheeks, and tells me softly and caringly, "Baby, you're burning, wait I'll get you crocin."

It sucks being alone and sick with no one to take care of you. You feel like crying.

I feel like crying.

Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrr

Where are you?????????