Negative

It could have been the people I met. It could have been the country I landed in and stayed on, when every inch of me was screaming out to me to run.
Or it just could be me. Unlikely though.
I am certain, it's the people I met - Man... God... Abso-fucking-lute losers. I swear.
And I won't blame them if they think the same about me. For a mad man, the sane are as mad as the sane think about the mad man.
But there was something about them - the people in this country I met - they were so unlike... my kind. As if they never really grew up. Never really took any chances in their lives.
Something about them, that I could never really get attached to them. Something about them, that I never found them funny, or fun. I hung out with them, hoping that maybe a few days later, I'll become like them, and this alien country would turn out to be a little more than just lonely.
I have no qualms about saying, that the people I met had absolutely no idea about life.
They think like Qatar - like most people here. Maybe I'm just being a little too harsh on them.
But it's quite fair to say, it's because of them I've just started hating everything. Every single thing has begun to piss me off. The way people talk, the way people think, the stuff they do thinking they're doing to to enjoy themselves...
It's just so turning off.
There was this girl I met, besides several other people, who was stunned that I had no particular ambition. She's an Indian, but born and brought up in Doha. Exactly the type, that would probably bore someone like me to death in a matter of minutes.
She's someone for who I am probably demented to not have a goal in mind. She's never met anyone like me. I am an alien to her. Same old crap, "let's go dutch", "oh I want to make a lot of money", "I nam going to watch F1 in Bahrain".
Grrrrrrrrrr.
You know what I mean?
Same old normal shit.
What some people, who usually bitch about her to me, don't realise is that they're exactly like her. Absolutely normal.
Normal's good? Normal sounds pretty normal. Yeah, normal's good. But normal's just so friggin boring.
Flight stewards, and air hostesses. Well, I don't have a problem with them. They make your journey on flights quite worth it actually. But with all due respect, they spend their entire youth in a job, which requires absolutely no brains.
They might be potentially intelligent, maybe, but their job's such that it probably turns them into brain-dead human beings. Their job pays them alot, without making their brain itch for a second. So obviously they stop using their brain, and iti eventually becomes disfunctional.
More than half of the people I met were cabin crew! The rest were the ones who enjoyed hanging out with those brain-dead people, coz maybe somewhere they knew it gave them some sort of sense of superiority hanging out with some people who you could make your point in seconds and they'd consider you... wohaaaaa... he's good man!
Pathetic.
But I'm sure there are some people out here who're just like me. But what to do now, I've just started disliking everything. Be it going out, be it the taste of beer, be it the gorgeous looking woman beside me at the bar who said, "I like your hair."
I was like.... "oh shut the fuck up."

Get the point man? I'm refusing to open up to anybody now, because I am almost certain they're gonna turn out to be stupid losers, who're totally shit scared of everything and live in absolute denial.

I'd rather be alone than be with people I just can't connect with.

Those people need to travel.

Qatar is fun for a while, but it's not a place where you can stay forever. You need to get out. You need to let go.